CONNY
LARSSON’S LETTER ABOUT DR. HISLOP’S
AWARENESS OF THE SEXUAL ABUSE OF SATHYA SAI BABA
To
whom it may concern.
Dear
Friend in the expose of all the lies around Sai Baba!
Since
I have noticed that a letter about Dr. Hislop is moving around within and
without the Sai org. saying that he did not know what was going on with Sai Baba
and the students regarding sexual molestation, I can
I
was [T.M. founder] Maharishi Mahesh Yogi’s secretary during the year 1973. I
did not know about Dr. Hislop then. One day that year, a letter came to
Maharishi from this Dr. Hislop saying that he could not stay in the TM-movement
because now he had met God in the form of the Avatar of Sai, and Hislop
thereupon left the Maharishi and the TM movement.
Maharishi,
who had invested much in Dr. Hislop, appointing him as his first teacher in the
western world and even having him become secretary for a while, felt bad. He
asked me to write Hislop a letter telling him about the beautiful things that
were going on within the TM movement and that Dr. Hislop had his natural place
in this. He also asked Hislop not to follow this new master because he was Not
the avatar at all. Hislop was told he was now following a dark path.
I
myself wrote the letter and was very surprised by Maharishi¹s prompt answer to
Dr. Hislop but couldn’t do anything else than write what I was told by my
master Maharishi. I had never before heard anything about this Sai Baba so I
thought he was never anything else than a common Indian Guru fooling his
devotees and I forgot about everything after sending the letter. Dr. Hislop was
never heard of anymore and I forgot about him, too.
Ten
years later, after I had long since left Maharishi, I found Sai Baba as my God
and Avatar, and was fully devoted to him in all ways. Then I met Dr. Hislop, now
the leader of the Sai org. in USA, when I was down in Puttaparthi around 1983. I
was invited to come and tell my life-story that had become popular among the
Sai-devotees to Hislop¹s Sai-group that also was visiting Puttaparthi. He had
noticed that I was having very many interviews with Sai Baba, both private and
with the group.
When
I was called I had already during this journey had about 5 interviews and more
were to come. When he heard my story with Sai Baba he told me that he was that
particular Dr. Hislop to whom Maharishi sent the letter ten years earlier. We
then fell into each other¹s arms, praising the Lord Sai¹s skill in planning
his mission for us for so long. This was what we believed.
After
the sharing-meeting for devotees, Hislop asked me to stay with him and then he
asked me why Sai Baba had so many interviews with me. Since I was thinking that
everything that Sai Baba was doing with me was divine, I told him the whole
story about the sex we had on Baba's wishes (not mine), including oiling,
masturbation, oral sex, etc. I saw in his eyes that he was shocked, and he told
me that this was something he had to talk to Sai Baba about. We left each other,
Hislop shocked and I unknowing what I had caused in him since I thought it to be
divine and I was thinking that I had done no wrong by telling him.
It
took one day for Dr. Hislop to get himself invited for lunch with Sai Baba. Out
he came on his feet faster then ever since he had brought up this question with
Sai Baba about his sexual interest in me. We all know Dr. Hislop as a sincere
seeker who wasn't going to stop his investigation and so he didn't. Once more
he talked to me about it and then he told me that when he brought up he question
with Sai Baba, Baba had answered him: "This is not for you, you don¹t
understand the divine." When he further asked Sai Baba, he was thrown out
from the room and asked to leave. Sai Baba had been very upset with him, Jack
told me.
Since
I now had in a childlike way shared all my experience with Dr. Hislop concerning
Sai Baba’s sexual play with me, it was absolutely clear to him what was going
on. He even asked me if I enjoyed it myself. I told him NO –this was Sai Baba¹s
action, not mine. He asked me if I ever had felt any improvement in my life
force or Kundalini and I told him, No. Sai Baba wanted to do this with me and I
let it happen because he was my God. I never at that moment questioned this God.
We
never came to talk about this more and we each left Puttaparthi. What he made
out of this knowledge, or whether he denied it, is his matter. I told him about
the sexual abuse as it was, and it could not have been understood in any other
way than just sexual abuse--hence his shocked reaction the first day I told him.
If he later denied it, this is then the same as what all the SAI-leaders and
denying people within the Sai-org are doing.
It
wouldn¹t help if Sai Baba was raping us in public, they would still believe it
to be divine since they don't want to lose their faith. We can¹t win over
stupidity, we have to leave it and go further on.
So
to the question of whether Dr. Hislop knew about the molestations of Sai Baba,
the answer is very much YES-YES. Anyone saying anything else is a liar, but what
more could we expect from these people who choose to follow a teacher who has
been lying for all his life about himself from day one up to this day.
Yours
sincerely
Conny
Larsson
Former devotee